Jumat, 24 Januari 2014

“Lifelong Love”

                        
Hy guys my name is Rusmini , you can called me Iyus , but whatever you want called me Iyus , yuyu , yuyus , or Ciyus. Hehe it’s my love story with my extended family.
14 february 1996 ,a married couple smiling happily welcome this little one highly anticipated 9 months old. Didn’t counted how much my parents love gave to me , since i was a kid many wise words gave to me. Mom said “it for arranging all the good future”.  Got older i began to understood the beauty of love. A story of love that felt beautiful when i strung my world began to recognized, to know nature is beautiful and a great life socialite. But when i was 8 years old i moved that made me felt uneasy didn’t understood what’s going on with my parents, then i heard a serious discussion with the high notes and such explosiveness. Cries the mother who said “go , and had enough with this long suffering” i didn’t understood, But suddenly felt down and wept tears at the time i had a brother who was about 4 years old. My mother and father didn’t long into my room and woke my mother took my brother and me. At that time i was just crying, didn’t understood what the issues faced parents. The atmosphere was calm again, when my brother was cried and my dad took him to saw a star beyond. Then my mom calm me and rock me to sleep again. Doesn’t happen again the next day atmosphere like last night, yes, maybe it’s an adult problem , i thought at the time. Only one was expected at the time, i didn’t want all that to happen again. I felt my world went dark since my age 10 years. More parents showed his selfishness than you love them. When the mother and father caught a few issues that i think it isn’t understandable. Then i ran and asked the grandmother “what’s wrong with them?” grandmother answered with smooth tones “was just the emotion of love dear, when you grow up you will understand”. Although at that time i can only wonder disturb but i’m sure what the grandmother said.
Time passed so quickly and eventually grandmother decided to stay in his hometown to  felt his age. After a decision acceptable to all the family grandmother , grandmother went to his hometown. Since then i lost my grandmother figure, but grandmother once said “Love is love of lifelong family , things are the same God who created us with immense love” , up until now i always remembered the advice my grandmother. Until the 15th of december 2009 my phone rang and i saw it was a called from the grandmother, but this time the grandmother gave the bad news, namely sick grandfather and existed hospital. The same day my parents went to my hometown to take care of grandfather granny. But God willerd others, grandfather died on 19 December 2009, all the families seemed not accepted the loss of her grandfather, as well as with grandmother , but grandmother back saying “the words that male all the family try to be patient because the grandmother certainly more hit. Finally a few days went by untill finally grandmother was seriously i will and had to be rushed to the hospital, the same hospital with a sick grandmother grandfather to all  the family at the time of panic, but the grandmother back said “life long love of family that” all families simultaneously cried and scared to lose a grandmother,because grandfather had just passed away 40 days earlier. Grandmother untill his last breath in the hospital, in the same room and at the same time with the death of the grandfather at the time. Words grandmother always kept up to date. I can only conclude that this is what grandmother about lifelong love. God has a will of others behind everything that happened.

As the years passed, even my age 16 years, i understood what was said when the grandmother of selfishness in love, and the love story of lifelong love. Until one day my parents back to solved the problem with less high tones , this time i understood that the anger and quarrels. I always tried to intervence but selfishness over control of their heart until they finally decided to split up. Then i want to went and catch up grandmother, but i remembered advice about the grandmother and a lifelong love of God had plans at this time i was only able to freshen up for his brother and mother because love is liked the grandmother said “lifelong love”. Thank you so much grandma grandpa, i hope you can happy inside Allah SWT.

MY PRINCE


     Hallo guys i want to tell my love story . you sure know what the love of location ? but before the first i’ll introduction who i am, my name is yuke . i am a cool easy going guy his same stranger , talkative , and funny . hehhehehe Anyway junior high school early entry whose name still geeky , plain and stupid !
      Hmm guys started from began of the story where there was a new student of 8 junior high school came to my class, his name was “Nugraha Ramadan”. Firstly was still mediocre but uncounsciously sense that initially mediocre urned out to be extraordinary. Grade 9 Junior High School. Started the began wahere i became closed to him. Teh wonderful felt that i was very comfortable with him, closed to him. Even in school we usual bought snacks together, sat together, plaied together, to the extent that most of students grade 9 classmates thought i was in a made a date with him while still nothing. Because i was just a friend. I wanted to told to him that i “Love him more than a friend” but i didn’t dare to reveal it all! My god what to did what was really no such things as “Best friend to be in love” but why did he never realized.
            Day after day we had passed, the end of the semester was caming but things began to changed as there was one person who named “Bintari” grader side secretly liked him. When it was Nugraha went away from me, and eventually classes were hated my side. Somehow it all hapepened i was confused ! i tried to asked him, it was nothing real? But his great  anger to me. I was sad all the way to the back as I already did. But has failed! Until we all pass from junior high school and all further to senior high school. I could heard from my friends that he will continue her school in Yogyakarta. I sad, very sad.  Tried to contacted him by phone, facebook but none of her returned I had always thought a few  months and I hoped that moment I feel  just  sad and disappointed. Anxious to try to forget it all, but is very difficult and never felt L.

            But without realizing it after I get a new sense of senior high school arises that is simply to “Rheza Andika” familiar with it early from my BBM contact with her close, closer and closer until finally began we invented yuhuuuuuuu in February 13th 2012. Tried to open a new chapter of the named valentine happen. He gave me a surprise with very romantic chocolate uuuuuh sosweet... i think that he is the only person who can make me forget about my past that. But the made a date did not last long. Until finally we end it all. But anyway the love growing inside. Feeling sad and disappointed it was haunting me again there was no one who could replace him! Reza I realy realy love you :*.
            After a few months even feel pity, Asih in my mind, after knew in May he had new lover that is Diyah. I was very  disappointed, frustrated, and disappointed .....
            And I thought “Why Reza can have new love but me cann’t do it”. And finally in June 02th 2012, i had new love. He named is “Daniel Pratama”.  Early imitation, I never  had  feel to him. Because,  my heart still for Reza. Although such my made a date with him enough long. In october 10th 2012 my made a date with him end. As I never love him.
            In October i had new love is “Fanny Fadilah”. He was people handsome, cool, but not very well. My made a date with him just 4 days. In moment i started love him. He finished all. That moment i very hated him.
            I felt done didn’t want had a boyfriend again. Since done enough broken heart. Day to day, I got Vespa. And I became scooterist. In the here I got many experience. My friends scooter who very care to me. “Babeh kumis” he was chairman of my scooter club.  And appear he was husband from my teacher, was miss Zakia. Appear he had son, who  named “Reki”. Without conscious, after enough long near with him. Finally,  he made clear love to me. And I accepted his love. But made a date didn’t  enough long and must done.

            Until now, my felt same as former thats very miss him. But i didn’t know how was his felt. But all didn’t finish this time. I began to conscious if marriage partner will didn’t go everywhere. But if i and him was marriage partner maybe got ever prepare what very beautiful.  So, didn’t ever  desperate since all  beautiful in the time , after all the moment i and Bintari became friend even tobe classmaters . rheza and reki made a friendship one club is IVJ . thanks god all became nice because you 

Rabu, 22 Januari 2014

berontak!!!


Ketika aku tak tau lagi harus membawa kemana tubuhku ini
Terkoyak dengan dunia yang sepertinya tidak sependapat denganku
Tanah seperti enggan menyocokkan dirinya dengan pijakan kakiku
Aku melemah ..
Hidupku terasa semakin hancur dengan segala ketidak adilan
Bagaimana aku menyikapi hidup dengan bijak ?
Tidak kah Tuhan menyisipkan kebahagiaan untukku walau hanya sepercik
Bahkan anginpun terasa jahat ketika aku mulai membeku
Tidak ada lagi kehangatan yang terasa
Aku melemah ..
duniaMu semakin kejam , mungkinkah tidak lagi tercipta hangatnya berbagi, memberi, menyayangi dan mencintai ?
Bagaimana orang-orang itu bersandiwara dengan bijak ?
Ketika memberi hanya untuk menjadikan dirinya orang yang dermawan
Ketika mengasihi hanya untuk oranglain tahu bahwa ia telah berbagi
Bahkan ketika semua dibutakan karena kehormatan
Tidak kah mereka peduli dengan keikhlasan ?
Tidak kah mereka menggunakan hati saat berbagi ?
Ya ... sepertinya tidak
Dunia ini semakin banyak sandiwara yang dibuat hanya karena kebahagiaan sesaat.



Jumat, 15 November 2013

kehancuran !!!

Aku tertegun menjalani kenyataan yang pahit , terlihat bayang-bayang keputusasaan di dalam seluk beluk kehidupan. mengarungi kediaman yang tidak lagi dikenal dengan keindahan. terjerumus dalam keputusasaan hidup. aku tertegun melihat seluruh alam tertunduk melihat kelemahanku , seperti ikut mengayomi dalam keterputusasaan. TUHAN , berilah secercah cahaya untuk aku tetap berjalan , TUHAN , kirim aku malaikat kecilmu untuk menemani hati yang kurasa kini telah rapuh.. kehancuran ini membuat aku lemah , membuat aku seakan hampir menyalahkan sang pencipta , jangan biarkan itu Tuhan, Jangan biarkan aku menyalahkan atas kehendakmu , karena aku tahu engkau selalu ada bersamaku untuk mencapai titik keindahan dalam hidup.

Sabtu, 02 November 2013

Ignore :')

Terusik kenangan di hati , terhambat segala rasa yang ada , aku hilang bersama angan , terkubur dalam kenangan dan menggenggam segala keputus asaan. kelak saat aku harus pergi , akan kubuka genggamanku , akan ku tunjukkan rapuhnya hidupku saat kau siasiakan aku. tidak bermaksud untuk membalaskan dendam , hanya saja inginku kamu tidak mengulanginya lagi pada siapapun :) cukup aku dan cukup sampai disini . 

Senin, 18 Maret 2013

lembayung senja

nampak perputaran bumi berlalu ..
"Habis gelap terbitlah terang" perumpaan nan indah untuk pembentukan suatu pemikiran.
menampaki jalan pada lembayung senja ..
terlampaui langkah nan jauh demi asa di ufuk pagi..
 Hamparan cita-cita tergambarkan cerah didalam malam ,
terlukiskan bersama bintang .
Detik-detik pencapaian nafas memuncak demi keberhasilan
terbayangkan perjuangan hidup , luka hati hilang dalam sekejap saat indahnya dunia mulai tergapai.. Tuhan menyertai setiap langkahku :) 
lembayung senja membantuku mencari kekuatan,
terbentuk kekuasaan yang Dahsyat untuk bumi..
Angan terbang bersama angin , menari diudara ,
peri-peri kehidupan menyambut riang keberhasilan , membuang keterpurukan nan jauh.
Lembayung senja disertai keagungan Tuhan .

Rabu, 06 Maret 2013

Kata Hati untuk Ibu

Ibu ...
beban anakmu sungguh semakin berat .
Bantu aku melewati semuanya bu ..
Berikan aku bayangan .. harapan bahagia kelak ..
Kini aku merasakan deru geramnya dunia ..
Dunia jahat bukan ?
memisahkan jarak antara kau dan aku ?
aku menyimpan rinduku padamu bu ..
Mimpikan aku dalam mimpi indahmu ..
Bawa aku bersamamu , kan ku jalani hidup denganmu .. sampai aku tidak mampu mengukir bahagia untukmu ..
sampai aku tidak mampu melihat senyummu ..
sampai aku menutup mataku untuk bahagiamu :)